Blogging and Motivation
First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I know, it’s already March and I’m just writing my first post of 2010. There’s been a hundred and one things I’ve wanted to write about, but I just didn’t get around to writing. Nor did I get around to doing a lot of other things I should have been doing. Which caused me to tell myself that I should not even think about posting to the blog while my closet remained disorganized, outgrown clothes needed to be cleaned out from my children’s wardrobes and donated to charity, some art work on canvas I had bought (I’m shamed to confess, 4 years ago) remained unframed…and the list goes on. Other moms who regularly post to their blogs have a better handle on their lives, I’ve concluded. And until I get that handle on mine, don’t even try to be like them.
So I slept instead. And the more I slept, the more tired I felt. Absolutely no motivation to do anything. “Swim classes, no way”, I told my daughter. “I’m not punishing myself this year. Rushing out early on a frigid Saturday morning to get to swim class. We’ll wait till Spring.” Somehow, I’ve cut out all activities. But yet, I can’t find the time to complete the tasks those activities took me away from. Sleep has taken over my free time. So what’s the point?
But now I think I realize my error. Denying myself the outlet to blog is also draining my energy. It’s totally counter-intuitive, but it’s what my experience speaks. If I wasn’t writing this post at this minute, I would have sucumbed to tiredness instead. But as I write, I feel no tiredness. I feel awake. I feel ready to take on an activity as soon as I’m done with this post. Perhaps I’ll start with my bathroom closet.
